A few thoughts.

It's been entirely too long.

I think this may exist as a way to relieve my frustration (s).

I think God is revealing some things to me recently:

1) His timing and his plan are incredibly intricate in the ways of allowing us to only understand certain things at certain times. Wow. Mull on that one. There are so many things I would have loved to understand a year ago...and they were RIGHT in front of me! But God chose not to reveal some of them to me until now.

2) I can survive with myself and with God. I have. and I can. Nothing's wrong, I'm just a little frustrated right now...and a little bit feeling like I am no longer my own person.

3) Continuing on subject #1: Because of this, I can not expect people to comprehend what others do.

4) Summer as I knew it disappeared on August 23, 2008.

Spring break soon.

which means: Plane, ATL, Leeland?, Plane, PUERTO RICO, Plane, ATL, Plane, LEELAND! Sleep?

mmmm. Awesome.

Lessons from the dark.

Hello. I'm sitting here in the pitch black of my room with my room mate.
I walked in and the lights were off. So naturally, I think, "Lauren must be asleep."
Fifteen minutes later, Lauren sits up and says, "What's up?"
and I say, "Nothing. Just sitting here. What's up with you?"
She says, "I have no intention of going to sleep."
HAHA.
We laughed for a while.
The lights are still off, and we're both silent.
But I'm going to say something now.

I just asked her if I can stay at her house when Megha, Emily and I go to the STATE TOURNAMENT! It's going to be off the chain. Road trippp! I'm so excited.

So that's all.

ew life.

Well.
Basically, college life isn't fun right now.
I wish nothing was going on, you know? Then I wouldn't feel like I want to spend money and everything, haha.

But on the good side.....I'm totally just chilling tonight.

This day.

Well, today has gone well thus far.
Piano went well, as did both history classes.

Although I'll be honest, these 8 ams are rocking my world.
in a bad way.

I hate to put God in a time frame.

I hate to feel like God's timing isn't my timing. I hate that. so much. But I feel like I'm lagging behind, and even if I wasn't, I still wouldn't be where I need to be.

dang!

I haven't posted anything in months. I am so sorry if you read this, haha.

I'm struggling a bit right now. With little things that really seem to bother me.
I almost feel like a goof ball who can't just chill and deal with what's going on....like it's not important? But I feel as though it is. With the area of Worship music, specifically. I would like to have a mentor, I think. Like, someone who's actively involved with worship music....and to be honest, someone who's actively involved in a worship band. Someone like Phil Wickham, the guys in Leeland, Aaron Schust, Starfield.....people like that. I just want to observe Christ working in that way. I kinda feel like I'm blind.

hmm.